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Hi yall!
I am having a problem with a past life that is flowing very closely under the surface of my current one and it is beginning to torture me.
I will tell you the whole story and see if you can give me any impressions that you have. So, I guess it is foil hat time...........
when I was 28 I began to have dreams of a woman riding a black horse sidesaddle in a riding habit through an old southern town-every time I had this dream I saw more details of the town. she had long red hair and I think a little "out of the box" in her upbringing because I do not think most women rode like this.
The next dream I had only once- I saw her and her children running down steps when the stairway collapsed and killed them.
Ok now it gets weird.
I didnt know till after 5 years later that the most destructive earthquake to hit the east coast hit Charleston SC on august 31, 1886. it was an estimated 7.6 and was felt from cuba to new york and bermuda to mississippi. 2.5 million square miles.
In 1982 a friend took me to Charleston for the weekend and as we sat on the bayfront he asked to himself "where is meeting street?" At this point I went altered and told him to turn up the little alley and we would be there- and we were. I walked right into the gate to one of the houses and David grabbed me out saying "this isnt F@#king williamsburg! you dont just walk into these houses!" I told him I just wanted to see my flowers and on the way out got really upset about the disappearance of hitching posts. Ok- I know that was weird. I had never been to the town and knew nothing of it at all.
My husband at the time (1886) was not home- Kell has told me she feels his name is Thomas. I am searching for him, I have moved 3 times to northern florida. I feel he is here and not charleston- I bet he would have an aversion to the town. I am staying put here- I feel like we have passed like ships in the night. Like walking into a room that has no one in it but the chair is still warm and the cigar is burning in the ashtray.
here's the question- will I find him- have I already found him and passed by- I just dont know but I dont believe in coincidence and I think I am here for a reason. It became imperative to move back here from the mountains. I pretty much knew my marriage was over and I was getting pulled "home".
Whatever your impressions- let me have them- even if they seem silly or unimportant. they may jar my memory loose.
I feel that I was raised by my father in that life- that maybe he was a merchant and that my mother passed in childbirth or early on.
Ya know-I would like nothing better than a big "Hollywood ending" to this but I have to face reality- he could be a woman now-he could be a real jerk now or even married and happily so...........that's been my kind of luck in love in this life. But I know we had a love in 1886 and I really dont feel like marrying again until I find him or someone like him.
I have been checking through cemetery listings from that year and many are incomplete and nothing has as yet zoomed me.
I have no idea what my name was but I can tell you I lived in the old peninsular city (the place all the tourists go- you have all seen it on those haunted history shows)
About 110 people were killed that day.
Help please!!! This life is haunting me and I am suffering.I need your help due to all the stress and illnes I have had- my psychic abilities are flatlined right now- maybe for good too!
I need to find him! I was drawn to this part of the country in a very stong way- there has got to be a reason. Sundog does not believe in accidents.
Can yall imagine the book I could write if I find him??
sundog the seawitch
I am having a problem with a past life that is flowing very closely under the surface of my current one and it is beginning to torture me.
I will tell you the whole story and see if you can give me any impressions that you have. So, I guess it is foil hat time...........
when I was 28 I began to have dreams of a woman riding a black horse sidesaddle in a riding habit through an old southern town-every time I had this dream I saw more details of the town. she had long red hair and I think a little "out of the box" in her upbringing because I do not think most women rode like this.
The next dream I had only once- I saw her and her children running down steps when the stairway collapsed and killed them.
Ok now it gets weird.
I didnt know till after 5 years later that the most destructive earthquake to hit the east coast hit Charleston SC on august 31, 1886. it was an estimated 7.6 and was felt from cuba to new york and bermuda to mississippi. 2.5 million square miles.
In 1982 a friend took me to Charleston for the weekend and as we sat on the bayfront he asked to himself "where is meeting street?" At this point I went altered and told him to turn up the little alley and we would be there- and we were. I walked right into the gate to one of the houses and David grabbed me out saying "this isnt F@#king williamsburg! you dont just walk into these houses!" I told him I just wanted to see my flowers and on the way out got really upset about the disappearance of hitching posts. Ok- I know that was weird. I had never been to the town and knew nothing of it at all.
My husband at the time (1886) was not home- Kell has told me she feels his name is Thomas. I am searching for him, I have moved 3 times to northern florida. I feel he is here and not charleston- I bet he would have an aversion to the town. I am staying put here- I feel like we have passed like ships in the night. Like walking into a room that has no one in it but the chair is still warm and the cigar is burning in the ashtray.
here's the question- will I find him- have I already found him and passed by- I just dont know but I dont believe in coincidence and I think I am here for a reason. It became imperative to move back here from the mountains. I pretty much knew my marriage was over and I was getting pulled "home".
Whatever your impressions- let me have them- even if they seem silly or unimportant. they may jar my memory loose.
I feel that I was raised by my father in that life- that maybe he was a merchant and that my mother passed in childbirth or early on.
Ya know-I would like nothing better than a big "Hollywood ending" to this but I have to face reality- he could be a woman now-he could be a real jerk now or even married and happily so...........that's been my kind of luck in love in this life. But I know we had a love in 1886 and I really dont feel like marrying again until I find him or someone like him.
I have been checking through cemetery listings from that year and many are incomplete and nothing has as yet zoomed me.
I have no idea what my name was but I can tell you I lived in the old peninsular city (the place all the tourists go- you have all seen it on those haunted history shows)
About 110 people were killed that day.
Help please!!! This life is haunting me and I am suffering.I need your help due to all the stress and illnes I have had- my psychic abilities are flatlined right now- maybe for good too!
I need to find him! I was drawn to this part of the country in a very stong way- there has got to be a reason. Sundog does not believe in accidents.
Can yall imagine the book I could write if I find him??
sundog the seawitch
I can't give you any psychic impressions but I was wondering if you could remember how many children you had. If you could find a listing of people killed in that quake and possibly look for a woman with children (same last name), you might find a connection to at least your last name and then look up Thomas (who ever). =\
I won't say that I'm a great psychic but I do sense some things strongly and other nothing at all...
While reading your post, all that kept popping in my head was the word "neighbor" for some reason. Ok, so it might seem silly but that's something about some psychic things, doesn't always make sense right?
Is anyone living close by that you've ever felt connected too? and as strange as you might look in doing this, look at people's eyes. I feel for some reason that when you find Thomas, you'll know it in his eyes (or her eyes? Yikes! )
If you see someone that stirs something in you for any reason, and you're walking by, drop something, do anything, ask for the time, etc. You have to know right?
While reading your post, all that kept popping in my head was the word "neighbor" for some reason. Ok, so it might seem silly but that's something about some psychic things, doesn't always make sense right?
Is anyone living close by that you've ever felt connected too? and as strange as you might look in doing this, look at people's eyes. I feel for some reason that when you find Thomas, you'll know it in his eyes (or her eyes? Yikes! )
If you see someone that stirs something in you for any reason, and you're walking by, drop something, do anything, ask for the time, etc. You have to know right?
hi yall- i am gonna bump my own thread- not sure if this is rude to do but I'm gonna do it anyway.
connie- I know that there is a list and I have tried to get it- nut I will succeed someday by hook or crook.
mamabear- i agree- it's in the eyes- recently i found something in the eyes of someone I work with- but dont know if it's thomas or something else. but there is a connection between us.
I'll get back later after I get home from work- thanks yall- sundog
connie- I know that there is a list and I have tried to get it- nut I will succeed someday by hook or crook.
mamabear- i agree- it's in the eyes- recently i found something in the eyes of someone I work with- but dont know if it's thomas or something else. but there is a connection between us.
I'll get back later after I get home from work- thanks yall- sundog
Hey sweetie! My mind is a little foggy this morning, but I'm going to think on this one today and see what I come up with.
My first thought upon reading this made me think of an old family story that most likely has nothing at all to do with this. However, there are a few parallels. After the Civil War, my great great grandfather was a young German immigrant. We know that he married an affluent young woman from Charleston. Her father was a merchant, and my gggrandfather worked for him. For whatever reason, after a few years, my relative came to Texas, with his young wife and three children (boys). I don't know if the Texas frontier was too much for her, but they divorced. She went back to Charleston, and he did also, but came back to Texas with his new bride, Frances Carroll, my gggrandmother.
I don't know much about the first wife, I know one of my relatives has some information on her, and I will try to find the name.
I'm going into my "witchmode," and see if I come up with anything. ;-)
My first thought upon reading this made me think of an old family story that most likely has nothing at all to do with this. However, there are a few parallels. After the Civil War, my great great grandfather was a young German immigrant. We know that he married an affluent young woman from Charleston. Her father was a merchant, and my gggrandfather worked for him. For whatever reason, after a few years, my relative came to Texas, with his young wife and three children (boys). I don't know if the Texas frontier was too much for her, but they divorced. She went back to Charleston, and he did also, but came back to Texas with his new bride, Frances Carroll, my gggrandmother.
I don't know much about the first wife, I know one of my relatives has some information on her, and I will try to find the name.
I'm going into my "witchmode," and see if I come up with anything. ;-)
Pam: I can certainly agree with Mamabear....what you're looking for is in the eyes. I can't offer anything yet about Thomas or John or????? but I can offer this tiny bit of advice:
Sometimes when we're looking for something we tend to not realize that we have already found what it is we're looking for. Have you ever ranted around the kitchen because because you couldn't find, say the jar of peanut butter? You ask for help and that person goes to right where the jar is in the cabinet that you just looked in and swore it wasn't there? I call this the "peanut butter syndrome" :lol: My point is that maybe you've already found who you're looking for and just don't realize it.....this person with whom you have a connection to at work, perhaps? =\ Have you ever considered regression therapy? I do hypnotherapy on the side (certified clinical hypnotherapist ;-) ) and I have had some measurable success with some of the regression session's I've done in the past. That might be your answer or at least one possible solution?
As I re-read you thread I come up with a name for you: the name that keeps coming to me is Lillian or Lilith. From what you've discribed about the female in your dreams she/you is a quite an elogant and regal woman! I will continue to focus and ponder on your quest and let you know if I came up with anything else. Keep us posted.
Nay Nay
Sometimes when we're looking for something we tend to not realize that we have already found what it is we're looking for. Have you ever ranted around the kitchen because because you couldn't find, say the jar of peanut butter? You ask for help and that person goes to right where the jar is in the cabinet that you just looked in and swore it wasn't there? I call this the "peanut butter syndrome" :lol: My point is that maybe you've already found who you're looking for and just don't realize it.....this person with whom you have a connection to at work, perhaps? =\ Have you ever considered regression therapy? I do hypnotherapy on the side (certified clinical hypnotherapist ;-) ) and I have had some measurable success with some of the regression session's I've done in the past. That might be your answer or at least one possible solution?
As I re-read you thread I come up with a name for you: the name that keeps coming to me is Lillian or Lilith. From what you've discribed about the female in your dreams she/you is a quite an elogant and regal woman! I will continue to focus and ponder on your quest and let you know if I came up with anything else. Keep us posted.
Nay Nay
I am sorry to be so late in thanking yall for your kind and helpful replies. My family has been visiting and I just didnt get to the computer.
I think that I am going to put this search on the back burner. I think what made me obsess about it so much was that there has been such a lack of romantic love in my life for so very very long that I began to look to an idealized and maybe even fantasy past life. How's that song go? "lookin' for love in all the wrong places....."
Anyway- It is time to concentrate on all the truly good things in my life NOW- to be grateful for them and to love and grow in the present.
Maybe some day a truly romantic man will come along and treasure me as much as I will treasure him. Maybe.
I wonder if I will even recognize true love for what it is. I simply dont know what it is but would like to find out.
May all your days be filled with rainbows- Sundog
I think that I am going to put this search on the back burner. I think what made me obsess about it so much was that there has been such a lack of romantic love in my life for so very very long that I began to look to an idealized and maybe even fantasy past life. How's that song go? "lookin' for love in all the wrong places....."
Anyway- It is time to concentrate on all the truly good things in my life NOW- to be grateful for them and to love and grow in the present.
Maybe some day a truly romantic man will come along and treasure me as much as I will treasure him. Maybe.
I wonder if I will even recognize true love for what it is. I simply dont know what it is but would like to find out.
May all your days be filled with rainbows- Sundog
Pam, I think it's good that you've moved this to the back burner, so to speak. If it's meant to happen in this life, it will - the more you aggressively look for it, the harder it can be on you mentally. I know you know that. ;-)
But since I'm posting on here... I may as well give you a reminder on what I came up with as your name and what I saw later that happened..
Ok.. in addition to coming up with the name Thomas for him; your name was Charlotte - emphasis on the 'lotte'.
Days later, without even trying to think about it (trying to fall asleep, actually), I saw this "Charlotte" near a horse that was raring up and I think that perhaps she was at least injured by the horse. Remember I had mom ask you if you were sure she died in the quake after I saw that? But I also saw her in bed, as if ill.. so maybe that was just an injury and the quake did in fact kill her.
I've never seen any kids though. =\ Anyhow... just thought I'd put that out there for ya in case you didn't remember all of it. ;-)
Kell
But since I'm posting on here... I may as well give you a reminder on what I came up with as your name and what I saw later that happened..
Ok.. in addition to coming up with the name Thomas for him; your name was Charlotte - emphasis on the 'lotte'.
Days later, without even trying to think about it (trying to fall asleep, actually), I saw this "Charlotte" near a horse that was raring up and I think that perhaps she was at least injured by the horse. Remember I had mom ask you if you were sure she died in the quake after I saw that? But I also saw her in bed, as if ill.. so maybe that was just an injury and the quake did in fact kill her.
I've never seen any kids though. =\ Anyhow... just thought I'd put that out there for ya in case you didn't remember all of it. ;-)
Kell
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I think what made me obsess about it so much was that there has been such a lack of romantic love in my life for so very very long that I began to look to an idealized and maybe even fantasy past life.
Go see Signs and drool over Mel Gibson for a while. It will make you feel a little better. ;-)
Kell- thanks for the name and the insight. this is incredible because I have always loved the name Charlotte! I have always had a thing for horses and a way with them too- but then- what young girl doesnt have a thing for them. But I went riding near my house bareback as a child- completely unafraid!
Oh yes Pandora- I will see that movie as well as the secrets of the divine ya-ya sisterhood! (one of the best books I have ever read) maybe Charlotte and Pamela will make a day of moviegoing next week! I can sit in the movies all day and be happy as a clam!
I am going to cancel my trip to charleston with my cousin for the anniversary of the earthquake at the end of the month. I'll go back there when I am not so fragile. dont know if I may trip over some line that I shouldnt and not be right where I need to be in the here and now. As curious as these things are sometimes they are better left alone for our mental health.
thanks again to yall- you are wonderful! sundog
Oh yes Pandora- I will see that movie as well as the secrets of the divine ya-ya sisterhood! (one of the best books I have ever read) maybe Charlotte and Pamela will make a day of moviegoing next week! I can sit in the movies all day and be happy as a clam!
I am going to cancel my trip to charleston with my cousin for the anniversary of the earthquake at the end of the month. I'll go back there when I am not so fragile. dont know if I may trip over some line that I shouldnt and not be right where I need to be in the here and now. As curious as these things are sometimes they are better left alone for our mental health.
thanks again to yall- you are wonderful! sundog
=) =) You can always trust Connie to come up with a good idea like that! =) =)
Carrie may have something there. I've found that for some reason even on the web we meet people we are supposed to meet. In my childhood I had visions that I had no idea what they meant and later I found were about people I recently met on the internet. She may have clues for you.
Mrs Grrl has a great suggestion. Hypnotherapy works extremely well for most of the population. Unless you are blocking it on purpose and shouldn't realize yet.
I hope you find the man of your dreams soon Sundog. Everything you could have wished for. =)
Carrie may have something there. I've found that for some reason even on the web we meet people we are supposed to meet. In my childhood I had visions that I had no idea what they meant and later I found were about people I recently met on the internet. She may have clues for you.
Mrs Grrl has a great suggestion. Hypnotherapy works extremely well for most of the population. Unless you are blocking it on purpose and shouldn't realize yet.
I hope you find the man of your dreams soon Sundog. Everything you could have wished for. =)
Well thank you Nakis.
I've been doing some searches but I've come up with no list of names yet. I just e-maile the South Carolina Historical Society to see if anyone there knows how to get a copy.
There are two sites that are very interesting. The first is the Historical Society:
http://www.schistory.org/[/URL]
And the second is a site with tons of photos:
http://www.eas.slu.edu/Earthquake_Center/1886EQ/[/URL]
If would be interesting to know if any of these shots seem familiar to Sundog.
I've been doing some searches but I've come up with no list of names yet. I just e-maile the South Carolina Historical Society to see if anyone there knows how to get a copy.
There are two sites that are very interesting. The first is the Historical Society:
http://www.schistory.org/[/URL]
And the second is a site with tons of photos:
http://www.eas.slu.edu/Earthquake_Center/1886EQ/[/URL]
If would be interesting to know if any of these shots seem familiar to Sundog.
Sundog,
I've been sitting here trying to find out something to help you til my rears numb.I even traced some guys family tree cause his name was Thomas & he was from S.C. LOL.
Bless your heart, you probably feel like you've lost something you need and can't find it, i hate it when that happens.
I came across a web site where you can look up old newspapers, obits. events,etc. by location. Maybe you could check it out and see if anything rings a bell.It's THEOLDENTIMES.COM.
Sorry i'm a rookie, i don't know how to do the whole click on the link thing.
Hope this helps.
Tess
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I've been sitting here trying to find out something to help you til my rears numb.I even traced some guys family tree cause his name was Thomas & he was from S.C. LOL.
Bless your heart, you probably feel like you've lost something you need and can't find it, i hate it when that happens.
I came across a web site where you can look up old newspapers, obits. events,etc. by location. Maybe you could check it out and see if anything rings a bell.It's THEOLDENTIMES.COM.
Sorry i'm a rookie, i don't know how to do the whole click on the link thing.
Hope this helps.
Tess
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HI yall- I ma here but not able to do a good posting- gotta go to the hospital amd have an EEG- not to worry though - they never find anything and it is just something I have to have now and again.
I have looked at earthquake photos and i feel nothing- i was dead by then. I do feel a little sad but it's sort of an "oh well".
I have tried to get the listing and was told it may be at the newspaper but I havent been able to get a hold of them.
I am actually thinking of writing a historical romance around this. And folks- I think I do know who Thomas is and I told him about the book and the ending of it. he got rather uncomfortable when I told him about it. I think it would sell well in the charleston market. just dont know if I can really write something that long so I need to learn about writing a book now. I think it will be good therapy. it'll take some trips north to charleston but not on the anniversary of the earthquake- still too fragile to handle it.
someday I'll be able to tell you more.......
love yall- sundog
[ August 19, 2002, 06:26 AM: Message edited by: sundog ]
I have looked at earthquake photos and i feel nothing- i was dead by then. I do feel a little sad but it's sort of an "oh well".
I have tried to get the listing and was told it may be at the newspaper but I havent been able to get a hold of them.
I am actually thinking of writing a historical romance around this. And folks- I think I do know who Thomas is and I told him about the book and the ending of it. he got rather uncomfortable when I told him about it. I think it would sell well in the charleston market. just dont know if I can really write something that long so I need to learn about writing a book now. I think it will be good therapy. it'll take some trips north to charleston but not on the anniversary of the earthquake- still too fragile to handle it.
someday I'll be able to tell you more.......
love yall- sundog
[ August 19, 2002, 06:26 AM: Message edited by: sundog ]