That little happening with the egg was very interesting. It might have been a little sign from Erzulie... but, what did she mean? It might have been that it was a simple sign to just put more love into yourself and your surroundings. By eating the egg, you placed the love inside yourself, right? Just another possible angle... =)
Sundog, I agree with what you are saying about the necessity to love yourself. That is very true! We can be so very hard on ourselves, and sometimes without respite. We shouldn't blame ourselves for things, like we all do from time to time.
Treating ourselves special is a very positive thing to do, because the better we feel, the better we look, and looking good helps others to pick up those positive vibes that you have worked so hard to create within your spiritual and physical self. As I heard Oprah saying the other day on her show.... "Good luck is simply when being prepared meets with an opportunity".
I think you are doing the right thing, Sundog... preparing yourself for the entrance of this special 'soul mate someone' into your life. But, you must be careful about reading too much into what this person is saying about 'if you love it, why don't you marry it' about all kinds of things. That seems to me to be the sort of comment that any man might make when he wants to be funny, and draw 'sex' into the conversation simply because that is what guys think about alot, and they like little 'sexual inuendos', but they don't usually take them seriously. Just want ya to be careful, and not get that heart broken!! =)
If this were indeed your soul mate, I find it hard to believe that you are the only one who seems to see it that way. I think when a person meets a soul mate, both of them are very aware that the other is a soul mate. If you have to ask him, or push him in the right direction, I think you may be setting yourself up for heartbreak. It has to be a spontaneous thing for both of you. Just be careful, eh, girlfriend? ::hugs::