I seriously have been thinking about going back to Retha and trying again. I just don't want her to think I am trying to waste her time thinking she won't charge me ya' know?
She has done alot of good for people that I do know, weight, smoking etc.
When I did go, I tried so hard for her and myself. I wasn't trying to clown, I wanted this to work.
But after all these years, I am also different. Not a totally different person, but not as agressive or bullheaded as I used to be. Hubby said I finally mellowed? LOL
And at the time, I did have a high stress job, well I always had a high stress job and now I am disabled. So, part of my mind set has changed to some extent. I am just stressing in different ways now! LOL
You know once, someone very close to me told me I lived off stress and if I didn't have it, I would create it. He said it seemed drawn to me somehow. He didn't mean that I actually made stressful situations, but he said they just kind of were me? Part of me, but I did a really good job of handling it. Actually, stress I always did my best work under?
I am going to try it again, after we get everyone well here.
Thanks! and HUGGGERS!
Piglet
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