Catherine
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Apr 17 '04
Hello everyone,
I am new to this board and would like to share some of my experiences and hope that someone could shed some light on some of the unexplainable things that had happened to me while growing up.
From around the time I was 15 to 17 years old, I experienced sleep paralysis almost on a regular basis. It's very hard to describe. It feels like there's this heavy, oppressive weight bearing down on you while you're sleeping. It always occurred at night and happened when I laid on my back, very fatigued, and ususally between the stage where you're still awake and about to drift off into sleep.
The paralysis seemed to last several minutes (approx. 5 min) but I'm thinking it was more like 15 seconds. I can't move - not even to turn my head or open my mouth to scream. It just seemed so real. I like to think that I was fully awake during these episodes because I was keenly in tune to my surroundings - the few times when I did have my eyes open, I could see the dark outline of my room as well as the moonlight streaming in from my bedroom window, and I could hear the sound of the air conditioner running.
But the one thing that I remember most was the humming in my ears. It would start off really low and then gradually build to an almost deafening sound. This is probably what scared me the most. When I told my mom about it, her advice to me was to say a few quick prayers during these episodes to see if it would help. However, whenever I did, the sound would only intensify. And the more I tried to fight it and resist it, the worse it got and the longer it lasted. I realized that struggling against it was useless. Since I'm paralyzed, I can only wait it out and let it pass. And when it does pass, I am fully awake. Not even the least bit groggy.
However, I have noticed that the minute I hear sounds or sense movement coming from any one of my family members in the house, such as my mom getting up to use the bathroom, the "spell" gets broken and everything is back to normal. Strange.
One other time, I actually had this sensation of being slowly dragged across my bed. Of course, I couldn't move, and it scared me to no end. I was yanked from a deep sleep (not between stages). And when it happened, I was completely conscious of my surroundings. Just when I thought I had hit the edge of the bed and about to fall, the paralysis breaks, and I snap my eyes open, only to realize that I was nowhere near the edge and that everthing was normal. Like as though it had never happened.
I shared my bedroom with my 2 other sisters, but I was the only one this had happened to. And it was only under this house that strange things had happened to me. It only went on for about 2 years until I was about 17 years old.
When I moved out of that house and left for college, it stopped and I never experienced it again since.
About 10 years have passed, and I have always wondered about all those sleep paralyses I had at my old house. Were they just bad dreams I had? A medical condition? Was my bed haunted, if not the house? Or something more? It's unexplainable and I really don't have an answer for it. Around that time, I was younger and believed in ghosts and so my mind just naturally concluded that it had something to do with the paranormal. I'm more of a skeptic now and have attributed those events to a physiological/medical cause.
If anyone has or had any similar experiences, please share your stories. It has always bothered me not knowing for sure. I'm sure there's a plausible scientific explanation for it, but a not so small part of me think otherwise. I don't necessarily need definitive answers or proof (although that would be great). I would just like to know I'm not the only who went through this and that it wasn't a product of my overactive imagination.
Sorry for the long post.
Thanks to anyone who can provide any insight.
Catherine
[ April 18, 2004, 04:02 AM: Message edited by: Catherine ]