Cat, what you said struck a chord with me, maybe this was a spirit visit. Right now, my mind is just reeling after finding some things out.
About a year or so ago, before we got Brianna, I started having a re-occuring dream that really upset me at the time. I dreamed several times I was in a large room with very heavy, dark furniture. The room was dimly lit by candlelight. In the dream, I was giving birth to a child. Two African American women were present, one younger, the other older. There was also a man in the corner of the room, a very handsome, well-dressed fellow, he reminded me of Johnny Depp with a heavy moustache.
In the dream, after I've given birth, the two women, (I assume slaves), take the baby and do not allow me to see it. I can tell the child is alive, and I'm extremely upset. I try to get up from the bed, but end up crashing into a heavy dresser. One of the women puts me back in the bed and I'm hysterical. The man sits calmly, but I can tell he is very upset, he walks to the bed, pats my hand, but is unable to look me directly in the face. At that point I would wake up. I'm not sure if the man is my husband, or a male relative. I chalked it up to some sort of weird anxiousness about the upcoming adoption.
Now, a few days ago, I had the ghost dream that was just as realistic.
I also need to add that when I was a small child, we had gone on a family vacation and drove past an old plantation house. I was about 4 or 5, but I pointed at it and said that "I used to live in a house like that." My parents said that after that, I would start drawing pictures of the house.
Now, for the part that just blows me away. Cat, after I read your post, I called a relative who does the family genealogy and ask her if anything like what was in my dream had ever taken place in that particular branch of the family.
As it turns out, my GGGgrandmother, who was considered to be of mixed race, was rumored to have given birth to a child by a slave. She gave the child to a female slave to raise. The child, as an adult, testified in court about this. According to the court documents, he claimed that because my grandmother and her family were trying to "pass for white" that she could not keep him. At that point, their land and everything they owned was in serious jeopardy because of the speculation on their heritage. He also said that although she never acknowledged him as her child, she met him when he was older and gave him some small trinket. His family denied that this was true. My relative is mailing me the copies of the court records on this.
Well, my jaw is still on the floor. I had absolutely no prior knowledge of this. I'm not sure if I was my own grandmother in a former life, or if for some reason or another one or several of these spirits is trying to contact me for some reason. It is quite a mystery!